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Woman:
I FELT LIKE MISS AMERICA.

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I DECIDED, YOU KNOW,

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"WHATEVER SIZE I AM,
I'M JUST GONNA BE THIS SIZE."

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THE WEIGHT JUST PILED ON,

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TO THE POINT WHERE
I'D LOST COUNT.

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NOW I'M NOT LIVING A LIFE.
I'M JUST EXISTING.

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Woman
IT FEELS LIKE I'M DEAD,

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LIKE THAT I'M NOT ALIVE.

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Woman
WITHOUT THE SURGERY,

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I WOULD HAVE DONE IT.

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MY WAY DOESN'T WORK.

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AND THIS IS A DYNAMIC
THAT WE NEED TO CHANGE NOW.

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I'M DONE WITH THIS!
I QUIT! [SOBS] I'M DONE!

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OH, IT HURTS.

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[ INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS ]

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I CAN'T BE THE REASON
YOU LOSE WEIGHT

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OR THE REASON YOU GAIN WEIGHT.
PERIOD.

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[ Crying ] I WILL MAKE THIS
WORK. I PROMISE.

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Zsalynn: I DON'T WANT HIM
TO LOOK LIKE HE DOESN'T CARE,

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'CAUSE I KNOW SOMEWHERE INSIDE
OF HIS HEART HE MUST CARE.

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Zsalynn: WHEN YOU REALIZE

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THAT YOU HAVE TO MAKE A CHANGE
OR YOU'RE GONNA DIE,

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IT'S SURPRISING WHAT YOU LEARN,

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NOT JUST ABOUT YOURSELF
BUT ABOUT THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU.

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I'M MISERABLE.

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WHEN YOU'RE NOT JUST FAT
BUT SUPERSIZED,

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EVERYTHING IS REALLY HARD.

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I'M NOT LIVING A LIFE.
I'M JUST EXISTING.

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[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

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I JUST HATE WAKING UP
AND BEING IN MY SKIN.

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[ Voice breaking ]
I REALLY HATE BEING THIS SIZE.

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I HAVE BECOME SO IMMOBILE.

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I DON'T DO ANYTHING.

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MY DAYS ARE FILLED WITH
EATING AND SITTING ON THE COUCH,

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EATING, TAKING A NAP.

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I PROBABLY WATCH
7 OR 8 HOURS OF TV A DAY.

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THIS IS NO LIFE.

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[ GRUNTS ]

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WHEN I STAND UP,
IT'S REALLY, REALLY PAINFUL.

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IT HURTS MY JOINTS --
MY KNEES, MY ANKLES, MY HIPS --

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SO MUCH,

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I WANT TO JUST SIT
RIGHT BACK DOWN.

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THE PAIN'S UNBEARABLE.

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IT'S JUST [SIGHS] YOU KNOW --
IT'S HARD.

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AS A CHILD, I WAS ALWAYS CHUBBY.
I WAS ALWAYS FAT.

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I CAN REMEMBER
GOING THROUGH A CATALOG

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AND CIRCLING CLOTHES
THAT I WOULD LIKE TO HAVE

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TO GO TO SCHOOL IN,

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AND MY MOM WOULD SAY THAT
THOSE AREN'T THE KIND OF CLOTHES

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THAT FAT KIDS WEAR TO SCHOOL.

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MY MOTHER WOULDN'T ALLOW ME

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TO LICK ENVELOPES
OR POSTAGE STAMPS,

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'CAUSE SHE THOUGHT
THEY HAD CALORIES.

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BEING FAT -- FOR MY MOTHER,
IT JUST WASN'T AN OPTION.

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Zane: ZSALYNN WAS A NORMAL
WEIGHT PROBABLY TILL AGE 5.

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ELEMENTARY SCHOOL,
FOURTH AND FIFTH GRADE --

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THEN IT REALLY STARTED
COMING ON,

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AND IT JUST SEEMED LIKE
SHE BALLOONED OVERNIGHT.

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AND MOTHER WOULD TELL HER,
"TILL YOU LOSE 10 POUNDS,

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YOU'RE NOT GETTING
ANY MORE CLOTHES."

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Zsalynn: MY MOTHER
DIDN'T HAVE TIME FOR ME,

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SO I FED MYSELF.

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FROM FRESHMAN YEAR
TO SENIOR YEAR,

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I WENT FROM 170
AND ENDED UP AT ABOUT 375.

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THE WEIGHT JUST PILED ON
FROM THERE,

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TO THE POINT WHERE
I JUST LOST COUNT.

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42 YEARS OLD,
AND I WEIGH 550-PLUS POUNDS,

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AND I -- I FEEL NOT TOO GOOD
ABOUT THAT.

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I BOUGHT A SCALE
THAT GOES TO 500,

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BUT IT --
IT JUST READS "ERROR" NOW.

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WHEN I SAW THE SWEET,
SUGARY CEREAL AISLE,

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MY CART
JUST AUTOMATICALLY TURNED.

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ONE OF THE MAIN REASONS
THAT I'M FAT

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IS BECAUSE I HAVE
THIS ADDICTION TO SUGAR.

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IT'S MY CRACK COCAINE.

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IT'S MY HEROIN.
IT'S MY EVERYTHING.

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GET SOME FROSTING
FOR MY BROWNIES.

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I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY HAVE

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ALL THESE DIFFERENT KINDS
OF BROWNIE MIXES.

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[ CASH REGISTER BEEPING ]

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MMM.

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[ SIGHS ]

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* AH *

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THERE'S, LIKE, A BIG,
BRIGHT LIGHT SHINING DOWN.

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MMM.

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[ Chuckling ]
IT'S REALLY, REALLY GOOD.

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IT'S SO SUGARY SWEET
AND DELICIOUS,

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I JUST WANT TO MAKE LOVE TO THEM
WITH MY MOUTH.

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EXACTLY, IT'S LIKE A SEXUAL
THING FOR ME, OBVIOUSLY.

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[ SIGHS ]

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I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING
IS LITERALLY KILLING ME,

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BUT I CAN'T STOP.

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FOR THE LONGEST TIME,

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I FELT TOTALLY FINE
ABOUT MY WEIGHT.

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I WAS ACTUALLY
KIND OF PROUD OF IT.

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I GUESS AT ABOUT 19 YEARS OLD,
I FOUND THE ORGANIZATION NAAFA,

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THE NATIONAL ASSOCIATION
TO ADVANCE FAT ACCEPTANCE.

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AND THAT'S WHEN I DECIDED,
YOU KNOW,

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"WHATEVER SIZE I AM,
I'M JUST GONNA BE THIS SIZE.

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WHO CARES?"

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Bonnie: ZSALYNN AND I MET
AT A NAAFA GATHERING.

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[ Chuckling ] I SAW HER
AT THE POOL, WEARING A BIKINI.

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SHE WAS THE KIND OF GIRL
THAT HER HAIR WAS ALWAYS DONE,

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HER NAILS WERE DONE.

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SHE WAS THE FAT-GIRL ROCK STAR.

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SHE WAS IMPRESSIVE.

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I FOUND THAT APPEALING
IN A FRIEND.

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WE'VE STAYED GREAT FRIENDS EVEN
THOUGH I'VE LOST THE WEIGHT.

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Zsalynn: WHEN YOU GO TO NAAFA,

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YOU MEET LOTS OF MEN
FROM DIFFERENT COUNTRIES.

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IF THEY HAVE THE MEANS AND
THEY WANT TO HANG OUT WITH YOU,

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THEN THEY'RE GONNA PAY YOUR WAY.

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I WAS STAYING IN 5-STAR HOTELS

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AND SKINNY-DIPPING
IN THE MEDITERRANEAN.

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I'M HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE.

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I FELT LIKE MISS AMERICA.

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YOU KNOW, I HAD A CUTE LITTLE
MATCHING PANTY-AND-BRA SET,

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SO I TOOK A PICTURE
OF MYSELF IN IT,

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AND I PUT IT ON MY PROFILE.

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THAT'S WHEN I MET MY HUSBAND.

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Gareth:
SHE LOOKED SO BIG AND COMFY

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AND SOFT AND SQUISHY.

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YOU KNOW, I LIKE BIG WOMEN,

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AND SHE WAS -- SHE WAS
THEIR QUEEN AT THE TIME.

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Zsalynn: AT 29 YEARS OLD,
I WAS 520 POUNDS.

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THAT'S A QUARTER OF A TON.

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MY WEIGHT WAS STARTING
TO TAKE A TOLL ON MY HEALTH.

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I WENT FROM HAVING
THIS AMAZING OUTLOOK ON LIFE

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TO THIS RECLUSIVE PERSON
WHO DIDN'T LIKE HERSELF.

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I USED TO THINK AT NIGHT,

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"IF I DON'T WAKE UP,
I'M OKAY WITH THAT."

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[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

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Gareth:
WHEN I FIRST MET ZSALYNN,

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IT WAS HER SIZE
THAT ATTRACTED ME TO HER.

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BUT NOW SHE'S GOTTEN SO BIG,

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IT'S IMPOSSIBLE FOR US
TO DO ANYTHING.

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AND I GUESS YOU JUST GOT TO
BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR.

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Zsalynn:
DRIVING IS A LITTLE DIFFICULT.

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I WENT FROM FIRST TO THIRD,

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'CAUSE SECOND DOESN'T REALLY FIT
WITH MY THIGH.

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I NOW HAVE A MORE IMPORTANT
REASON THAN JUST MYSELF

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TO GET HEALTHY.

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MY WEIGHT IS AFFECTING
SOMEONE I LOVE.

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THERE SHE IS.

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[ VEHICLE DOOR CLOSES ]

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[ Voice breaking ]
I HAVE A DAUGHTER NOW,

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AND I DON'T DO SOMETHING,
SHE MAY NOT HAVE A MOM.

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SO, HOW WAS SCHOOL TODAY?

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GOOD.
WHAT DID YOU DO?

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NOW WE'RE DOING STUFF
ABOUT PLANTS.

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MY WEIGHT IS REALLY AFFECTING
HER LIFE...

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[ PARKING BRAKE ENGAGES ]

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...BUT I DON'T THINK
SHE REALIZES HOW MUCH.

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THAT'S THE ABSOLUTE
HARDEST PART.

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COME ON.
[ LAUGHS ]

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I'M HANNAH'S MOTHER,

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BUT BONNIE'S ABLE TO DO
ALL THE THINGS THAT I CAN'T DO.

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[ SPEAKING
INDISTINCTLY ]

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SHE'S PRETTY MUCH
RAISING HANNAH.

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[ BOTH LAUGH ]

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IT MAKES ME FEEL A LITTLE SAD

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'CAUSE MY MOM IS MISSING OUT
ON SOME FUN STUFF.

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Bonnie: IT'S AN AIRPLANE.

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[ Voice breaking ] I'M SURE THAT
SHE NEVER, EVER, EVER IMAGINED

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THAT SHE WOULDN'T BE ABLE
TO BE THE KIND OF MOTHER

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THAT SHE ALWAYS WANTED TO BE
FOR HER DAUGHTER.

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[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

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I'M AFRAID THAT
SHE'S GONNA DIE PREMATURELY.

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[ SIGHS ]

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UH, NO. 20 MINUTES.

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JUST LET ME KNOW
WHEN IT'S READY.

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I FEEL LIKE I'M GONNA BE DEAD
WITHIN 5 YEARS.

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TELL ME WHEN.

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THAT'S A SOPHOMORE
IN HIGH SCHOOL

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FOR MY DAUGHTER.

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I FEEL LIKE, IF I DIE,

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SHE'S GONNA BE THE ONE
THAT SUFFERS MORE THAN ANYBODY.

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Gareth:
IT WORRIES ME FOR MYSELF,
BUT IF TERRIFIES ME FOR HANNAH.

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I DON'T EVEN LIKE TO THINK
ABOUT IT, TO BE HONEST WITH YOU,

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BUT, I MEAN, IF ANYTHING DID
HAPPEN TO ZSALYNN,

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I KNOW HANNAH
WOULD BE DEVASTATED.

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MY DAUGHTER IS
AN INNOCENT VICTIM IN THIS,

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AND SHE DOESN'T DESERVE IT.

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I WANT HER TO BE ABLE TO SEE
THAT I CAN BE A GOOD PARENT.

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BUT SOMETHING IN MY LIFE
HAS TO CHANGE.

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Zsalynn: MY WEIGHT
HAS GOTTEN OUT OF CONTROL.

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I CAN'T CONTINUE LIVING
LIKE THIS.

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I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING.

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I HAVE AN APPOINTMENT
SCHEDULED TOMORROW

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WITH THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGEON,
AND I'M PRETTY NERVOUS.

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I'M NOT SURE
WHAT HE'S GONNA SAY.

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[ GRUNTS ]

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[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

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AND JUST GOING TO GET ONE LOAD
OF CLOTHES FROM THE DRYER

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WIPES ME OUT.

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Zsalynn: I HAVEN'T BEEN
ON A SCALE IN A VERY LONG TIME.

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SO, GETTING ON A SCALE IS GONNA
BE PROBABLY A HUGE EYE-OPENER.

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I WANT TO KNOW
AFFIRMATIVELY

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IF HE'S GOING TO PERFORM
A SURGERY ON ME.

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IF HE SAYS NO, THAT I'M NOT
A GOOD CANDIDATE,

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[Voice breaking]
IT'S GONNA BE A LONG RIDE HOME.

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[ GRUNTS ]

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OKAY.

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Woman: MISS WHITWORTH?

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[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

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[ SIGHS ]

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I DON'T WANT TO KNOW.

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YOU CAN STEP OFF.

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OKAY.

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Dr. Nowzaradan: HEY.
HOW ARE YOU?

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I'M OKAY.
HOW ABOUT YOU?

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I'M FINE, THANK YOU.

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I'M DR. NOWZARADAN.
ALL RIGHT.

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SO, WHAT DO YOU THINK
IS CAUSING YOU TO BE ALMOST 600?

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I DIDN'T LOOK AT THE SCALE.

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THAT'S WHY.

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SO...

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I'M A SUGARHOLIC.

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SUGAR IS MY DRUG OF CHOICE.

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HOW DO LOOK THAT SURGERY'S
GONNA CHANGE THAT?

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YOU'RE GONNA TAKE OUT
MY INTESTINES,

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00:12:24,100 --> 00:12:26,433
AND THE SECOND
SUGAR HITS MY INTESTINE,

225
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I'M GONNA BE VERY SICK.

226
00:12:27,800 --> 00:12:29,300
YOU'RE GONNA TO HAVE

227
00:12:29,300 --> 00:12:32,233
SOME REALISTIC EXPECTATION
FROM SURGERY.

228
00:12:32,233 --> 00:12:34,200
ALL THE SURGERY
IS GONNA DO FOR YOU --

229
00:12:34,200 --> 00:12:37,067
KEEP YOU FROM EATING
A LOT AT ONE TIME.

230
00:12:37,067 --> 00:12:38,567
HOW MANY TIMES
YOU'RE GONNA EAT

231
00:12:38,567 --> 00:12:40,333
AND WHAT KIND OF FOOD
YOU'RE GONNA EAT

232
00:12:40,333 --> 00:12:44,067
IS GONNA BE THE KEY ISSUE
TO MAKE SURGERY BE SUCCESSFUL.

233
00:12:44,067 --> 00:12:45,133
OKAY.

234
00:12:45,133 --> 00:12:47,100
IF YOU HAVE A FALSE HOPE

235
00:12:47,100 --> 00:12:49,533
THAT SURGERY IS GONNA KEEP YOU
FROM EATING SUGAR,

236
00:12:49,533 --> 00:12:51,733
NO, THAT'S NOT
GONNA HAPPEN.

237
00:12:54,067 --> 00:12:55,767
AS MANY AS I CAN.

238
00:12:55,767 --> 00:12:58,567
LIKE, YOU KNOW, I FEEL LIKE
I HAVE A HOLE IN MY SOUL,

239
00:12:58,567 --> 00:13:00,867
AND I'M TRYING TO FILL IT UP
WITH SUGAR.

240
00:13:00,867 --> 00:13:04,133
I SEE.

241
00:13:10,967 --> 00:13:13,933
I NEED TO MAKE SURE
SHE UNDERSTANDS

242
00:13:13,933 --> 00:13:17,133
WHAT IT'S GONNA TAKE FOR HER
TO GET READY FOR SURGERY.

243
00:13:17,133 --> 00:13:19,533
ZSALYNN,
YOU NEED TO GET READY

244
00:13:19,533 --> 00:13:22,533
BY LOSING SOME WEIGHT
ON YOUR OWN FIRST.

245
00:13:22,533 --> 00:13:26,167
I NEED TO SEE YOU LOSE
AT LEAST 20 TO 30 POUNDS.

246
00:13:26,167 --> 00:13:29,067
YOU HAVE TO CUT
THE CALORIE COUNT DOWN.

247
00:13:29,067 --> 00:13:31,533
BUT THE KEY ISSUE
WITH IT WILL BE

248
00:13:31,533 --> 00:13:34,067
THAT YOU ONLY EAT
TWO OR THREE TIMES A DAY,

249
00:13:34,067 --> 00:13:37,100
NO SNACK IN BETWEEN.

250
00:13:37,100 --> 00:13:39,433
IF YOU DON'T ADJUST
YOUR MIND-SET,

251
00:13:39,433 --> 00:13:42,833
THIS BYPASS
IS GONNA FAIL.

252
00:13:42,833 --> 00:13:44,200
OKAY.
OKAY?

253
00:13:44,200 --> 00:13:45,533
AND WE'LL DO THAT,

254
00:13:45,533 --> 00:13:47,867
AND WE'LL SEE HOW YOU DO
ABOUT TWO, THREE WEEKS.

255
00:13:47,867 --> 00:13:49,500
THANK YOU.
MM-HMM.

256
00:13:54,500 --> 00:13:56,900
WELL, HE SHOULD BE HARD

257
00:13:56,900 --> 00:14:00,167
SO THAT YOU KNOW
IT'S GONNA BE REALLY HARD.

258
00:14:00,167 --> 00:14:02,433
WE'RE NOT JUST GONNA
LEAVE YOU OUT THERE,

259
00:14:02,433 --> 00:14:03,533
HANGING BY YOURSELF.

260
00:14:03,533 --> 00:14:05,333
WE'RE GONNA HELP YOU,
ZSALYNN.

261
00:14:07,367 --> 00:14:10,533
Zsalynn: I THINK, AT THIS SIZE,
I COULD DIE ANY DAY NOW.

262
00:14:10,533 --> 00:14:12,633
I MEAN, I COULD DROP DEAD
FROM A HEART ATTACK.

263
00:14:15,433 --> 00:14:18,233
I'VE WAITED TOO LONG
TO DEAL WITH THIS PROBLEM,

264
00:14:18,233 --> 00:14:20,333
SO I HAVE TO DO IT.

265
00:14:20,333 --> 00:14:22,200
THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE.

266
00:14:27,167 --> 00:14:28,900
Zsalynn: HERE,
GIVE ME A HAND-UP.

267
00:14:28,900 --> 00:14:32,533
EE-HEE! THANK YOU.
ONE, TWO, THREE, PULL.

268
00:14:32,533 --> 00:14:34,167
THANK YOU.

269
00:14:34,167 --> 00:14:35,933
STARTING TODAY,

270
00:14:35,933 --> 00:14:41,067
I HAVE TO CHANGE
EVERYTHING ABOUT EVERYTHING.

271
00:14:41,067 --> 00:14:43,267
I CAN'T DO WHAT I WANT TO DO.

272
00:14:43,267 --> 00:14:45,233
I'VE MISSED OUT ON SO MUCH.

273
00:14:45,233 --> 00:14:49,100
I WANT THAT TO STOP,
AND I WANT THINGS TO CHANGE.

274
00:14:49,100 --> 00:14:52,367
SO, YOU WANT ME TO LET YOU WALK
ALL THE WAY OVER THERE,

275
00:14:52,367 --> 00:14:53,633
THEN I'M GONNA DRIVE

276
00:14:53,633 --> 00:14:55,600
AND I'M JUST GONNA WATCH YOU
THROUGH THE FENCE?

277
00:14:55,600 --> 00:14:56,900
YES.
YOU'RE OKAY WITH THAT?

278
00:14:56,900 --> 00:14:58,200
SURE.

279
00:14:58,200 --> 00:14:59,900
YOU GONNA WALK
WITH THEM, AMY?

280
00:14:59,900 --> 00:15:01,333
YEAH, SURE.

281
00:15:01,333 --> 00:15:02,367
Zsalynn: THANK YOU.

282
00:15:02,367 --> 00:15:03,767
YOU'RE WELCOME.
OF COURSE.

283
00:15:03,767 --> 00:15:07,167
HANNAH, WALK SLOW, PLEASE.
IT'S NOT A RACE.

284
00:15:07,167 --> 00:15:09,067
Zsalynn: I'M TIRED OF HAVING TO
RELY ON OTHER PEOPLE

285
00:15:09,067 --> 00:15:12,267
TO DO THE THINGS
THAT I WANT TO DO.

286
00:15:12,267 --> 00:15:13,700
I CAN'T EVEN WALK
AROUND THE GATE

287
00:15:13,700 --> 00:15:15,400
TO GET INTO HANNAH'S
FAVORITE PLAYGROUND.

288
00:15:15,400 --> 00:15:17,500
THIS IS
THE MAIN PLAYGROUND, SEE?

289
00:15:17,500 --> 00:15:19,567
PEOPLE WILL COME OUT HERE,
AND THEY'D RIDE THEIR BIKES.

290
00:15:19,567 --> 00:15:20,900
THERE'S A WHOLE BUNCH
OF SWINGS.

291
00:15:20,900 --> 00:15:23,100
THERE'S LIKE 18
OR SOMETHING.

292
00:15:23,100 --> 00:15:26,700
Zsalynn:
I'VE MISSED OUT ON SO MUCH
OF MY DAUGHTER'S CHILDHOOD.

293
00:15:26,700 --> 00:15:28,900
I NEED TO DO THIS FOR HER.

294
00:15:28,900 --> 00:15:30,867
COME ON, LET'S SWING.

295
00:15:32,533 --> 00:15:34,433
Amy:
LOOK, YOUR MAMA'S COMING.

296
00:15:34,433 --> 00:15:36,367
MOMMY!

297
00:15:39,600 --> 00:15:41,900
Zsalynn:
ARE YOU HAVING FUN, HANNAH?

298
00:15:41,900 --> 00:15:43,767
YES! LOTS!

299
00:15:43,767 --> 00:15:45,100
CAN YOU DO THIS ONE?

300
00:15:45,100 --> 00:15:48,500
HANNAH SAYS IT DOESN'T BOTHER
HER, BUT I KNOW IT DOES.

301
00:15:48,500 --> 00:15:49,800
Girl:
WHERE ARE YOU GOING?

302
00:15:49,800 --> 00:15:51,067
YOU DON'T NEED
TO COME OVER HERE.

303
00:15:51,067 --> 00:15:52,467
I KNOW.

304
00:15:52,467 --> 00:15:53,800
YOU CAN JUST GO AND SWING.

305
00:15:53,800 --> 00:15:56,167
I KNOW.

306
00:15:56,167 --> 00:15:57,800
[ Voice breaking ] I FEEL LIKE

307
00:15:57,800 --> 00:16:01,067
MY WEIGHT IS COSTING HER
A NORMAL CHILDHOOD.

308
00:16:01,067 --> 00:16:02,700
I KNOW I HAVE TO PICK

309
00:16:02,700 --> 00:16:05,667
BETWEEN BEING THERE FOR HER
AND MY ADDICTION,

310
00:16:05,667 --> 00:16:08,267
BUT I BELIEVE I CAN DO IT.

311
00:16:15,500 --> 00:16:17,867
Woman: MISS ZSALYNN?

312
00:16:20,633 --> 00:16:24,333
I'M NOT GONNA LIE.
THE PAST MONTH HAS BEEN TOUGH.

313
00:16:24,333 --> 00:16:28,833
BUT I'M EXCITED TO SEE
IF ALL MY HARD WORK HAS PAID OFF

314
00:16:28,833 --> 00:16:31,900
AND I CAN FINALLY GET
MY SURGERY.

315
00:16:31,900 --> 00:16:34,967
YEAH.
THAT'S REALLY AWESOME.

316
00:16:34,967 --> 00:16:36,067
[ LAUGHS ]

317
00:16:36,067 --> 00:16:37,900
I'M REALLY EXCITED.

318
00:16:37,900 --> 00:16:39,967
YOU DID GOOD.
THANK YOU.

319
00:16:39,967 --> 00:16:41,533
[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

320
00:16:41,533 --> 00:16:45,233
HELLO.
HI, DR. NOWZARADAN.

321
00:16:45,233 --> 00:16:48,167
I SEE YOU LOST
A FEW POUNDS, HUH?

322
00:16:48,167 --> 00:16:53,067
ANY DIFFICULTY WITH YOUR DIET
OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT?

323
00:16:53,067 --> 00:16:54,567
NOPE.
SUPER.

324
00:16:54,567 --> 00:16:58,900
Dr. Nowzaradan:
ZSALYNN DID OKAY TODAY.

325
00:16:58,900 --> 00:17:02,733
SHE'S PROVEN THAT SHE CAN
CONTROL HER EATING HABIT.

326
00:17:02,733 --> 00:17:05,067
I THINK SHE'S READY
TO MOVE FORWARD

327
00:17:05,067 --> 00:17:06,233
AND GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

328
00:17:06,233 --> 00:17:08,200
WE'RE ON RIGHT TRACK,

329
00:17:08,200 --> 00:17:11,667
AND WE'RE GONNA MAKE PROGRESS
AND GET YOU READY FOR SURGERY.

330
00:17:11,667 --> 00:17:13,467
OKAY.
OKAY? ALL RIGHT.

331
00:17:13,467 --> 00:17:15,633
THAT MAKES ME HAPPY.
THANK YOU.

332
00:17:15,633 --> 00:17:17,067
ALL RIGHT,
WE'LL SEE YOU, THEN.

333
00:17:17,067 --> 00:17:19,567
Zsalynn: THIS IS SO EXCITING.

334
00:17:19,567 --> 00:17:23,233
I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF
RIGHT NOW.

335
00:17:32,500 --> 00:17:35,833
YOU DON'T NEED
TO TAKE YOUR BIG SUITCASE.

336
00:17:37,200 --> 00:17:40,600
SO, THIS IS IT.
TOMORROW'S THE DAY.

337
00:17:40,600 --> 00:17:43,567
I AM GOING TO HAVE
WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

338
00:17:43,567 --> 00:17:46,233
IT REALLY DID COME UP
REALLY FAST.

339
00:17:46,233 --> 00:17:47,567
SO, IS THIS THE STUFF
YOU'RE BRINGING?

340
00:17:47,567 --> 00:17:48,667
YEP.

341
00:17:48,667 --> 00:17:49,933
YESTERDAY MORNING,

342
00:17:49,933 --> 00:17:53,467
I TOLD GARETH
THAT SURGERY WAS ON WEDNESDAY.

343
00:17:53,467 --> 00:17:57,333
HE'S BEEN TELLING ME HE'S
BEHIND ME WITH THIS SURGERY,

344
00:17:57,333 --> 00:17:59,133
BUT I DON'T THINK
HE ACTUALLY THOUGHT

345
00:17:59,133 --> 00:18:00,600
I WAS GONNA GO THROUGH WITH IT.

346
00:18:00,600 --> 00:18:02,567
PAJAMAS?
CHECK.

347
00:18:02,567 --> 00:18:04,600
HE SAYS,
"I MARRIED YOU 10 YEARS AGO,

348
00:18:04,600 --> 00:18:06,233
"WHEN YOU WERE A HAPPY FAT GIRL,

349
00:18:06,233 --> 00:18:08,533
"AND I WAS HAPPY
TO MARRY A HAPPY FAT GIRL.

350
00:18:08,533 --> 00:18:10,067
"IF YOU'D HAVE TOLD ME
10 YEARS AGO

351
00:18:10,067 --> 00:18:11,533
"I WAS MARRYING
AN UNHAPPY FAT GIRL,

352
00:18:11,533 --> 00:18:13,167
THEN MAYBE
I WOULDN'T HAVE MARRIED YOU."

353
00:18:13,167 --> 00:18:15,633
IT'S REALLY HARD
TO TALK ABOUT GARETH,

354
00:18:15,633 --> 00:18:19,767
'CAUSE, YOU KNOW, HE --
HE WANTS A FAT WIFE.

355
00:18:19,767 --> 00:18:23,900
HE WANTS WHAT
HE'S PHYSICALLY ATTRACTED TO.

356
00:18:23,900 --> 00:18:26,767
THAT'S WHAT HE WANTS.

357
00:18:26,767 --> 00:18:30,933
HE HAS A PHYSICAL PREFERENCE
FOR HIS SEXUAL NEEDS

358
00:18:30,933 --> 00:18:36,067
THAT REQUIRES ME TO BE BIGGER
THAN, YOU KNOW, JUST FAT.

359
00:18:36,067 --> 00:18:38,667
I REALIZE I'VE BEEN
TELLING MYSELF A LIE,

360
00:18:38,667 --> 00:18:40,400
AND THAT LIE WAS KILLING ME.

361
00:18:40,400 --> 00:18:42,533
BIG CAN'T BE BEAUTIFUL

362
00:18:42,533 --> 00:18:45,567
WHEN IT MEANS MY DAUGHTER
MAY NOT HAVE A MOTHER.

363
00:18:49,200 --> 00:18:55,700
HE HAS NO IDEA HOW CLOSE
TO DEATH I FEEL EVERY DAY.

364
00:18:55,700 --> 00:18:58,433
WITHOUT THIS SURGERY,

365
00:18:58,433 --> 00:19:01,567
I'M GONNA DIE SOONER,
RATHER THAN LATER.

366
00:19:01,567 --> 00:19:03,067
[ Voice breaking ] WITH SURGERY,

367
00:19:03,067 --> 00:19:05,367
I'LL BE WALKING
AND MOVING AND GOING.

368
00:19:05,367 --> 00:19:07,800
YOU KNOW, HE TALKS ABOUT [SIGHS]

369
00:19:07,800 --> 00:19:11,967
IT'S NOT THAT HE WILL NOT BE
SEXUALLY ATTRACTED TO ME,

370
00:19:11,967 --> 00:19:15,767
IT'S THAT
I'LL BE REPULSIVE TO HIM.

371
00:19:15,767 --> 00:19:17,700
I MEAN, I'M A LITTLE BIT SAD

372
00:19:17,700 --> 00:19:20,467
'CAUSE, YOU KNOW,
I LIKE BIGGER WOMEN,

373
00:19:20,467 --> 00:19:23,867
SO IT'S A LITTLE UPSETTING
TO LOSE WHAT YOU LIKE.

374
00:19:23,867 --> 00:19:26,733
BUT, YOU KNOW,
GONNA HAVE TO GET OVER IT.

375
00:19:26,733 --> 00:19:29,100
WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE
SUCH A NEGATIVE NANCY?

376
00:19:29,100 --> 00:19:30,933
[ Chuckling ]
WE'LL SEE.

377
00:19:30,933 --> 00:19:33,567
LET'S HOPE IT DOESN'T TURN
'ROUND TO BITE US IN THE BUTT.

378
00:19:33,567 --> 00:19:35,800
I'VE ALWAYS LIKED BIGGER WOMEN,
YOU KNOW?

379
00:19:35,800 --> 00:19:38,067
WHY SETTLE FOR A HOT DOG
WHEN YOU CAN HAVE A STEAK?

380
00:19:38,067 --> 00:19:40,067
Zsalynn: WE'RE GOING NOW.
ALL RIGHT, ALL RIGHT.

381
00:19:40,067 --> 00:19:43,533
I DON'T KNOW WHAT
THE FUTURE HOLDS, GOOD OR BAD.

382
00:19:43,533 --> 00:19:46,233
THIS IS GONNA BE HARD
TO GET IN AND OUT OF.

383
00:19:46,233 --> 00:19:48,167
[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

384
00:19:48,167 --> 00:19:50,433
[ GRUNTS ]

385
00:19:50,433 --> 00:19:53,333
BUT I KNOW THAT I'M MAKING
THE RIGHT DECISION

386
00:19:53,333 --> 00:19:54,700
FOR MY DAUGHTER AND I.

387
00:19:54,700 --> 00:19:56,067
OH!

388
00:19:56,067 --> 00:19:58,067
I'LL DO IT.

389
00:19:58,067 --> 00:20:02,333
GARETH ISN'T READY
FOR ME TO START THIS JOURNEY,

390
00:20:02,333 --> 00:20:04,967
BUT IF I DON'T DO
SOMETHING DRASTIC,

391
00:20:04,967 --> 00:20:06,267
I'M GONNA BE DEAD

392
00:20:06,267 --> 00:20:09,233
AND HE'S GONNA BE RAISING
A 9-YEAR-OLD DAUGHTER

393
00:20:09,233 --> 00:20:10,967
ALL BY HIMSELF.

394
00:20:23,167 --> 00:20:25,300
Woman: WE'RE DOING
A LAPAROSCOPIC PROCEDURE

395
00:20:25,300 --> 00:20:28,167
ON YOUR ABDOMEN,
REMOVING PART OF YOUR STOMACH.

396
00:20:28,167 --> 00:20:29,867
SO, YOU OKAY, SWEETIE?

397
00:20:29,867 --> 00:20:31,500
[ SNIFFLES ] YEAH.
YOU SURE?

398
00:20:31,500 --> 00:20:33,400
WE'RE GONNA TAKE REALLY GOOD
CARE OF YOU, OKAY?

399
00:20:33,400 --> 00:20:35,700
I HAVE
AN 8-YEAR-OLD DAUGHTER,

400
00:20:35,700 --> 00:20:40,200
AND, YOU KNOW, WHAT IF I DIE,
AND THEN SHE'S MOTHERLESS?

401
00:20:42,300 --> 00:20:44,167
Zsalynn: I WISH GARETH WAS HERE.

402
00:20:44,167 --> 00:20:47,233
SOMETIMES I WISH
HE WAS A DIFFERENT PERSON

403
00:20:47,233 --> 00:20:49,033
AND COULD BE HERE FOR ME.

404
00:20:49,033 --> 00:20:51,333
HELLO!

405
00:20:51,333 --> 00:20:53,900
LOOK AT ME
IN MY FANCY HAT.

406
00:20:53,900 --> 00:20:55,400
I LOVE YOU.

407
00:20:55,400 --> 00:20:57,100
I LOVE YOU, TOO.

408
00:20:59,367 --> 00:21:04,267
I KNOW SURGERY IS RISKY,
BUT NOT HAVING IT IS RISKIER.

409
00:21:04,267 --> 00:21:05,967
BYE.
BYE.

410
00:21:05,967 --> 00:21:08,933
I'M -- I'M SO SCARED.

411
00:21:08,933 --> 00:21:11,767
Bonnie: I'M NOT HERE
TO MAKE YOU CRY.

412
00:21:11,767 --> 00:21:13,567
I KNOW. OKAY.

413
00:21:15,367 --> 00:21:18,800
WE'LL COME SEE YOU WHEN
YOU COME BACK FROM SLEEPY LAND.

414
00:21:18,800 --> 00:21:21,267
Zsalynn: IF YOU DIE, YOU DIE.
I MEAN, THAT'S A FACT OF LIFE.

415
00:21:21,267 --> 00:21:22,967
EVERYBODY HAS A TIME.

416
00:21:22,967 --> 00:21:27,700
BUT I JUST WORRY ABOUT HANNAH.

417
00:21:27,700 --> 00:21:30,967
I JUST WANT HER
TO HAVE A BETTER LIFE...

418
00:21:30,967 --> 00:21:32,300
[SNIFFLES]

419
00:21:32,300 --> 00:21:33,900
...A MOTHER
WHO CAN WALK WITH HER

420
00:21:33,900 --> 00:21:35,567
AND BE WITH HER
AND PLAY WITH HER.

421
00:21:38,233 --> 00:21:43,167
SO I HAVE TO COME THROUGH
THIS SURGERY WITH FLYING COLORS.

422
00:21:51,567 --> 00:21:55,533
USUALLY, THIS TYPE OF SURGERY
IS MUCH MORE DIFFICULT

423
00:21:55,533 --> 00:21:58,900
IN PATIENTS
THAT ARE VERY HEAVY --

424
00:21:58,900 --> 00:22:02,433
LIKE, ZSALYNN
IS ALMOST 600 POUNDS.

425
00:22:02,433 --> 00:22:05,833
SO, HER SURGERY IS GONNA BE
A LITTLE BIT CHALLENGING.

426
00:22:10,300 --> 00:22:13,867
THE GASTRIC BYPASS
IS A GOOD TREATMENT

427
00:22:13,867 --> 00:22:16,767
FOR THESE PEOPLE
THAT ARE MORBIDLY OBESE.

428
00:22:16,767 --> 00:22:18,067
GO FORWARD.

429
00:22:32,600 --> 00:22:34,533
Bonnie: ARE THESE PENCILS
OR MARKERS?

430
00:22:34,533 --> 00:22:36,700
LET'S TRY THE BROWN.
OKAY.

431
00:22:36,700 --> 00:22:38,367
Bonnie: I'M AFRAID.

432
00:22:38,367 --> 00:22:40,200
I KNOW IT'S A MAJOR SURGERY.

433
00:22:40,200 --> 00:22:45,300
I JUST WANT THE RISK OF HAVING
THE SURGERY TO BE WORTH IT.

434
00:22:45,300 --> 00:22:48,267
ALL RIGHT, THAT LOOKS GOOD.

435
00:22:48,267 --> 00:22:51,467
I WANT HER TO BE
AS SUCCESSFUL AS SHE CAN,

436
00:22:51,467 --> 00:22:53,233
AND I WANT HER
TO GET HER LIFE BACK AGAIN.

437
00:22:55,100 --> 00:22:57,367
Dr. Nowzaradan:
ZSALYNN DID VERY WELL,

438
00:22:57,367 --> 00:23:00,067
AND WE'RE ABLE TO DO
THE BYPASS ON HER.

439
00:23:00,067 --> 00:23:03,233
IT WAS A LITTLE BIT DIFFICULT
BECAUSE OF HER SIZE.

440
00:23:03,233 --> 00:23:05,400
[ INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS ]

441
00:23:10,267 --> 00:23:12,467
YOU CAN GIVE HER A LITTLE RUB
RIGHT THERE.

442
00:23:12,467 --> 00:23:13,633
YOU WON'T HURT HER.

443
00:23:13,633 --> 00:23:15,067
HI, MOM.

444
00:23:16,400 --> 00:23:20,333
YOU OKAY?
MM-HMM.

445
00:23:20,333 --> 00:23:22,767
SHE'S OKAY, HON.

446
00:23:22,767 --> 00:23:24,167
[ CHUCKLES ]

447
00:23:24,167 --> 00:23:28,433
I PROMISE SHE IS.
SHE'S JUST SLEEPY.

448
00:23:28,433 --> 00:23:30,267
DO YOU WANT TO GO OUT
AND WALK FOR A LITTLE BIT?

449
00:23:30,267 --> 00:23:32,900
YEAH, OKAY, LET'S GO.

450
00:23:32,900 --> 00:23:34,500
AND IF YOU NEED A SNACK
OR A DRINK,

451
00:23:34,500 --> 00:23:36,167
THERE'S VENDING MACHINES
RIGHT THERE.

452
00:23:36,167 --> 00:23:37,600
YOU WERE REALLY,
REALLY BRAVE

453
00:23:37,600 --> 00:23:38,933
ALL DAY LONG TODAY,
HANNAH.

454
00:23:38,933 --> 00:23:44,300
YEAH, WE'RE JUST REALLY RELIEVED
SHE'S OKAY.

455
00:23:52,333 --> 00:23:54,800
ROOM SERVICE.

456
00:24:10,500 --> 00:24:12,833
Zsalynn:
MY APPETITE IS A LITTLE LESS,

457
00:24:12,833 --> 00:24:14,433
BUT I STILL WANT TO EAT.

458
00:24:16,500 --> 00:24:20,833
I'M SURPRISED THE FOOD CRAVINGS
ARE STILL HERE.

459
00:24:20,833 --> 00:24:24,500
BUT I HAVE TO DO THIS.

460
00:24:24,500 --> 00:24:28,967
I JUST WANT TO GET UP AND WALK.

461
00:24:30,800 --> 00:24:32,667
Bonnie: WOW.

462
00:24:32,667 --> 00:24:35,067
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?

463
00:24:35,067 --> 00:24:38,567
[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

464
00:24:38,567 --> 00:24:42,300
WHAT IS GOING ON
WITH THAT?

465
00:24:42,300 --> 00:24:45,867
YOU ARE BURNING UP RUBBER
UP THERE.

466
00:24:45,867 --> 00:24:48,833
I DID NOT THINK YOU'D BE
MOVING ALONG LIKE THAT.

467
00:24:48,833 --> 00:24:51,133
[ CELLPHONE RINGS ]

468
00:24:55,400 --> 00:24:56,733
IS IT DAD?
IT'S DAD.

469
00:24:56,733 --> 00:24:58,233
DO YOU WANT TO
TALK TO HIM?

470
00:24:58,233 --> 00:24:59,700
NO WAY.

471
00:24:59,700 --> 00:25:02,733
Zsalynn: I HAVEN'T TALKED
TO MY HUSBAND SINCE SURGERY,

472
00:25:02,733 --> 00:25:05,533
AND I DON'T KNOW
IF HE'S GONNA BE SUPPORTIVE

473
00:25:05,533 --> 00:25:07,400
OR IF HE'S JUST NOT.

474
00:25:07,400 --> 00:25:08,833
HELLO?

475
00:25:11,133 --> 00:25:14,067
OH, MY GOD,
I'M SO HAPPY YOU ASKED.

476
00:25:14,067 --> 00:25:15,667
I'VE LOST 78 POUNDS.

477
00:25:17,700 --> 00:25:20,133
SO, YOU'RE SICK?
WHY DIDN'T YOU GO TO WORK?

478
00:25:25,633 --> 00:25:29,100
OKAY. ON THAT NOTE,
I'M GONNA GO AHEAD AND GO.

479
00:25:29,100 --> 00:25:30,500
I'LL TALK TO YOU LATER.

480
00:25:30,500 --> 00:25:34,567
ALL RIGHT.
TALK TO YOU LATER.

481
00:25:34,567 --> 00:25:37,467
Zsalynn: I HOPE MY HUSBAND WILL
REALIZE THAT I MIGHT NEED HIM

482
00:25:37,467 --> 00:25:40,433
AND I MIGHT NEED HIS SUPPORT
TO DO THIS.

483
00:25:40,433 --> 00:25:43,200
I DON'T NEED TO HEAR ABOUT
WHAT THEY HAD FOR DINNER.

484
00:25:43,200 --> 00:25:44,267
I'M SCARED.

485
00:25:44,267 --> 00:25:45,733
OH, I LOVE YOU,
PUMPKIN BEAR.

486
00:25:45,733 --> 00:25:47,433
I DON'T KNOW
WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN.

487
00:25:47,433 --> 00:25:48,967
LOVE YOU.
LOVE YOU, TOO.

488
00:25:55,933 --> 00:25:58,333
GARETH INSISTED
ON PICKING ME UP TODAY,

489
00:25:58,333 --> 00:26:00,800
AND OF COURSE,
HE'S GONNA BE LATE.

490
00:26:00,800 --> 00:26:04,233
ASKED HIM TO BE HERE AT 11:00,

491
00:26:04,233 --> 00:26:08,200
BUT AT 8:45, HE STILL
HADN'T LEFT HOME YET.

492
00:26:08,200 --> 00:26:11,267
[ Voice breaking ] I KNOW
SOMEWHERE INSIDE OF HIS HEART

493
00:26:11,267 --> 00:26:13,200
HE MUST CARE.

494
00:26:13,200 --> 00:26:15,867
[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]

495
00:26:15,867 --> 00:26:17,500
YEAH.

496
00:26:21,967 --> 00:26:24,467
WELL, I'M SORRY
TO DISAPPOINT YOU,

497
00:26:24,467 --> 00:26:26,700
BUT I HAVEN'T LOST
75 POUNDS.

498
00:26:34,933 --> 00:26:36,733
I DON'T THINK GARETH

499
00:26:36,733 --> 00:26:39,267
IS GONNA BE SOMEONE
WHO'S GOING TO HELP ME.

500
00:26:39,267 --> 00:26:42,400
GOODBYE. TAKE CARE.
ALL RIGHT.

501
00:26:52,967 --> 00:26:54,733
[ SMOOCHES ]

502
00:27:02,533 --> 00:27:06,567
I'M NOT EVEN
A LITTLE BIT TEMPTED.

503
00:27:08,500 --> 00:27:11,633
IF HE'S GOING TO GO AHEAD
AND TRY AND TEMPT ME LIKE THIS,

504
00:27:11,633 --> 00:27:13,867
IT'S HURTFUL.

505
00:27:13,867 --> 00:27:16,267
IT'S A LITTLE BIT NAUSEATING,
TO BE HONEST.

506
00:27:17,900 --> 00:27:19,933
I THINK I MARRIED A JERK,

507
00:27:19,933 --> 00:27:23,467
BUT I THINK HE DOESN'T KNOW
ANY OTHER WAY.

508
00:27:25,500 --> 00:27:27,967
I DON'T KNOW IF I'M GONNA HAVE
GARETH'S SUPPORT,

509
00:27:27,967 --> 00:27:30,767
BUT I CAN'T TURN BACK NOW.

510
00:27:35,133 --> 00:27:40,733
Zsalynn: THIS IS REALLY HARD.
CHANGE IS HARD.

511
00:27:40,733 --> 00:27:44,167
CHANGING IS A WORK IN PROGRESS.

512
00:27:56,933 --> 00:27:58,467
OVER THE PAST MONTH,

513
00:27:58,467 --> 00:28:01,633
I'VE BEEN TRYING TO ADJUST
TO A NEW DIET.

514
00:28:01,633 --> 00:28:03,567
IT'S NOT BEEN EASY.

515
00:28:03,567 --> 00:28:07,733
I NEED TO HAVE A LOT OF PROTEIN,
AND EGGS HAVE A LOT OF PROTEIN.

516
00:28:09,633 --> 00:28:13,867
MY APPETITE IS A LITTLE LESS,
BUT I STILL WANT TO EAT.

517
00:28:13,867 --> 00:28:16,633
AND I'M SUPPOSED TO BE EATING
RUNNY EGGS STILL

518
00:28:16,633 --> 00:28:20,067
BUT I WOULDN'T EVEN ATTEMPT
TO EAT A RUNNY EGG.

519
00:28:20,067 --> 00:28:22,900
NOT EVEN IF I EAT SOMETHING BAD,

520
00:28:22,900 --> 00:28:27,500
MY STOMACH HURTS,
I FEEL NAUSEATED.

521
00:28:27,500 --> 00:28:31,933
I THOUGHT MY BIGGEST CHALLENGE
WOULD BE OVEREATING.

522
00:28:38,367 --> 00:28:41,433
DEFINITELY,
THE BIGGEST CHALLENGE SO FAR

523
00:28:41,433 --> 00:28:44,067
IS JUST EATING
THREE TIMES A DAY.

524
00:28:44,067 --> 00:28:47,167
FOOD WAS MY COMFORT
AND MY FRIEND,

525
00:28:47,167 --> 00:28:49,733
AND NOW IT'S JUST FOR SURVIVAL.

526
00:28:49,733 --> 00:28:52,400
I THINK I'VE HAD
ABOUT ALL I CAN HAVE.

527
00:28:52,400 --> 00:28:55,733
IT'S SO STRANGE WHEN YOUR WHOLE
RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD

528
00:28:55,733 --> 00:28:58,500
IS TURNED UPSIDE DOWN,

529
00:28:58,500 --> 00:29:01,467
BUT I'M TAKING IT
ONE STEP AT A TIME.

530
00:29:12,133 --> 00:29:16,067
SINCE THE SURGERY,
PROBABLY AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK,

531
00:29:16,067 --> 00:29:19,133
I HAVE A BREAKDOWN
WHERE I JUST CRY

532
00:29:19,133 --> 00:29:21,967
BECAUSE I MISS
MY OLD FRIEND SUGAR.

533
00:29:21,967 --> 00:29:23,800
AND THEN I GET OVER IT,

534
00:29:23,800 --> 00:29:27,500
'CAUSE THE CHOICE I MADE
WAS BEST FOR ME.

535
00:29:36,333 --> 00:29:37,600
HELLO.

536
00:29:37,600 --> 00:29:38,833
HI.

537
00:29:39,967 --> 00:29:43,967
LET'S SEE, HOW IS YOUR SCAR
AND INCISION DOING?

538
00:29:43,967 --> 00:29:47,700
UM, ALL OF THEM LOOK GOOD.

539
00:29:47,700 --> 00:29:50,433
HOW IS YOUR DIET
COMING ALONG?

540
00:29:50,433 --> 00:29:52,733
UM, MY DIET --
I REALLY HATE TO EAT.

541
00:29:52,733 --> 00:29:54,467
NOTHING TASTES GOOD.

542
00:29:54,467 --> 00:29:58,333
I'VE BEEN EATING COTTAGE CHEESE,
YOGURT, AND SOUP.

543
00:29:58,333 --> 00:30:00,933
Dr. Nowzaradan: ZSALYNN IS
MAKING SOME DECENT PROGRESS.

544
00:30:00,933 --> 00:30:04,133
SHE HAS LOST 150 POUNDS
FOR HER FIRST FEW MONTHS,

545
00:30:04,133 --> 00:30:09,233
BUT SOMEBODY IN HER SIZE
SHOULD LOSE AT LEAST 200 POUNDS.

546
00:30:09,233 --> 00:30:11,933
SHE SHOULD BE LOSING
MORE WEIGHT.

547
00:30:11,933 --> 00:30:13,867
HOW IS YOUR ACTIVITY?

548
00:30:13,867 --> 00:30:17,700
ACTIVITY IS MORE THAN
IT HAS BEEN IN THE PAST,

549
00:30:17,700 --> 00:30:20,133
BUT I FEEL LIKE I'M GONNA BE
ABLE TO KICK IT UP.

550
00:30:20,133 --> 00:30:24,500
OKAY. LET'S SEE IF WE CAN GET
ANOTHER 50 POUNDS NEXT MONTH.

551
00:30:24,500 --> 00:30:25,700
OKAY.

552
00:30:25,700 --> 00:30:27,500
YOU'RE GONNA BE
UNDER 400 POUNDS.

553
00:30:30,833 --> 00:30:32,833
Zsalynn:
THE DOCTOR WAS POSITIVE,

554
00:30:32,833 --> 00:30:34,533
SO I'M REALLY HAPPY ABOUT THAT.

555
00:30:34,533 --> 00:30:38,600
BUT I'VE GOT TO MAKE
MORE PROGRESS.

556
00:30:50,033 --> 00:30:53,000
I'M EXCITED
ABOUT SEEING THIS TRAINER.

557
00:30:53,000 --> 00:30:54,400
HELLO.
HI.

558
00:30:54,400 --> 00:30:59,033
I'M NERVOUS THAT GARETH IS GONNA
FLIP OUT WHEN HE FINDS OUT,

559
00:30:59,033 --> 00:31:00,567
BUT I HAVE TO DO THIS FOR ME.

560
00:31:00,567 --> 00:31:02,167
SO, YOU HAD GASTRIC BYPASS,
RIGHT?

561
00:31:02,167 --> 00:31:03,267
YES.

562
00:31:03,267 --> 00:31:04,833
PRIOR TO THAT,
WERE YOU DOING ANY EXERCISE?

563
00:31:04,833 --> 00:31:06,133
NONE.
OKAY.

564
00:31:06,133 --> 00:31:08,733
WHAT I WANT TO DO NEXT IS
DO SOME BASIC ASSESSMENT

565
00:31:08,733 --> 00:31:10,767
SO I CAN KIND OF SEE
WHERE YOU'RE AT.

566
00:31:12,400 --> 00:31:14,233
BREATHE IT OUT FOUR.

567
00:31:14,233 --> 00:31:15,833
ROLL IT BACK. UP FIVE.

568
00:31:15,833 --> 00:31:16,967
Zsalynn: I WANT TO BE A MOM.

569
00:31:16,967 --> 00:31:18,900
I WANT TO BE ACTIVE.
I WANT TO BE MOBILE.

570
00:31:18,900 --> 00:31:21,400
COUNT THEM OUT.
28 AND TIME. RELAX.

571
00:31:21,400 --> 00:31:23,267
JUST MAKING MYSELF GO.

572
00:31:23,267 --> 00:31:24,633
Julia: YOU GOT THIS,
YOU GOT THIS, YOU GOT THIS.

573
00:31:24,633 --> 00:31:26,467
PUSH IT OUT.
PUSH IT OUT.

574
00:31:26,467 --> 00:31:27,633
ZSALYNN IS THE LARGEST PERSON

575
00:31:27,633 --> 00:31:29,133
THAT I'VE EVER
PERSONALLY TRAINED.

576
00:31:29,133 --> 00:31:30,467
[ Laughing ] I CAN'T.

577
00:31:30,467 --> 00:31:33,100
I'M JUST CONCERNED
ABOUT HER STAYING CONSISTENT

578
00:31:33,100 --> 00:31:35,667
AND REALLY GRABBING ON TO THIS
AS A LIFESTYLE CHANGE,

579
00:31:35,667 --> 00:31:37,767
BECAUSE IT'S GONNA TAKE HER
A LOT OF TIME

580
00:31:37,767 --> 00:31:39,300
TO GET TO WHERE SHE NEEDS TO BE.

581
00:31:39,300 --> 00:31:42,267
AND TIME. 45.
GREAT JOB. GREAT JOB.

582
00:31:42,267 --> 00:31:43,700
YOU KNOW, OVERALL,

583
00:31:43,700 --> 00:31:45,733
I'M ACTUALLY PRETTY IMPRESSED
WITH WHERE YOU'RE AT.

584
00:31:45,733 --> 00:31:48,600
YOU DON'T HAVE A TON
OF RESTRICTIONS, HONESTLY,

585
00:31:48,600 --> 00:31:50,667
CONSIDERING YOUR WEIGHT.

586
00:31:50,667 --> 00:31:52,267
GREAT JOB.

587
00:31:52,267 --> 00:31:53,767
ALL RIGHT.

588
00:31:53,767 --> 00:31:55,700
THANK YOU.

589
00:31:55,700 --> 00:31:58,467
Zsalynn:
I FEEL REALLY GOOD RIGHT NOW.

590
00:31:58,467 --> 00:32:02,333
I FEEL LIKE
I'M ON TOP OF THE WORLD.

591
00:32:02,333 --> 00:32:04,400
BUT NOW I HAVE TO GO HOME
AND TELL GARETH,

592
00:32:04,400 --> 00:32:07,333
AND HE'S PROBABLY NOT
GONNA BE SO EXCITED FOR ME.

593
00:32:21,967 --> 00:32:23,767
YES.

594
00:32:23,767 --> 00:32:24,867
I DON'T KNOW.

595
00:32:24,867 --> 00:32:27,367
I'D RATHER HAVE A SALAD.

596
00:32:27,367 --> 00:32:28,433
I'M NOT BUYING YOU
A SALAD.

597
00:32:28,433 --> 00:32:29,467
IF YOU WANT TO EAT GRASS,

598
00:32:29,467 --> 00:32:30,900
YOU CAN GO IN THE GARDEN
AND GRAZE.

599
00:32:38,633 --> 00:32:40,433
[ HANNAH CRYING ]

600
00:32:42,367 --> 00:32:43,733
HANNAH, I MARRIED HIM

601
00:32:43,733 --> 00:32:46,100
BECAUSE IF I HADN'T MARRIED HIM,
I WOULDN'T HAVE YOU, BABY.

602
00:32:46,100 --> 00:32:48,067
SO?

603
00:32:48,067 --> 00:32:52,800
NO, I AGREE WITH HANNAH.
IT WASN'T WORTH IT.

604
00:32:52,800 --> 00:32:56,133
Zsalynn: THIS IS AN UNHEALTHY
RELATIONSHIP FOR ANYONE.

605
00:32:56,133 --> 00:32:58,400
IT MAKES EVERYTHING HARDER.

606
00:33:02,367 --> 00:33:04,867
HUH?

607
00:33:04,867 --> 00:33:06,267
[ DOOR SLAMS ]

608
00:33:06,267 --> 00:33:10,800
Zsalynn:
I KNOW THAT MY RELATIONSHIP --

609
00:33:10,800 --> 00:33:13,233
I NEED TO MAKE A CHANGE,

610
00:33:13,233 --> 00:33:16,067
BUT I DON'T THINK I CAN DO
TWO HARD THINGS AT ONCE.

611
00:33:23,067 --> 00:33:24,600
Zsalynn: EVEN THOUGH I KNOW

612
00:33:24,600 --> 00:33:27,833
THERE ARE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE
WHO ARE GONNA BE AGAINST ME,

613
00:33:27,833 --> 00:33:29,567
I'M FINDING NEW WAYS

614
00:33:29,567 --> 00:33:32,067
TO MAKE THE MOST
OF THIS EXPERIENCE.

615
00:33:32,067 --> 00:33:34,267
BUT TO BEAT THIS ADDICTION

616
00:33:34,267 --> 00:33:37,200
IS THE HARDEST DAILY STRUGGLE
I HAVE.

617
00:33:50,833 --> 00:33:53,833
THIS IS THE LOWEST I'VE BEEN
IN A LONG TIME.

618
00:33:53,833 --> 00:33:55,533
I'M LESS THAN 400 POUNDS.

619
00:33:55,533 --> 00:33:59,600
NOW MY RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD
IS ALL ABOUT FUEL.

620
00:33:59,600 --> 00:34:03,100
THIS PACKET
HAS 18 GRAMS OF PROTEIN

621
00:34:03,100 --> 00:34:05,767
AND ONLY 80 CALORIES
FOR THE WHOLE PACKET.

622
00:34:05,767 --> 00:34:07,767
[ CAT MEOWS ]

623
00:34:07,767 --> 00:34:10,567
TUNA AND AVOCADO.

624
00:34:10,567 --> 00:34:13,567
IT TAKES WORK EVERY SINGLE DAY.

625
00:34:13,567 --> 00:34:16,667
THE FOOD CRAVINGS
ARE STILL THERE.

626
00:34:16,667 --> 00:34:18,933
I WOULD VERY, VERY EASILY

627
00:34:18,933 --> 00:34:22,600
BE ABLE TO GO BACK
TO THE PLACE I WAS AT.

628
00:34:22,600 --> 00:34:25,600
BUT I HAVE TO MOVE FORWARD
ONE STEP AT A TIME.

629
00:34:25,600 --> 00:34:29,767
HANNAH AND I HAVE A GOAL
OF DOING A 5K IN APRIL,

630
00:34:29,767 --> 00:34:32,133
SO I REALLY HAVE TO STAY
ON THE DIET,

631
00:34:32,133 --> 00:34:34,133
I HAVE TO CONTINUE
TO LOSE WEIGHT,

632
00:34:34,133 --> 00:34:37,533
STAY FOCUSED ON THIS WEIGHT LOSS
AND PHYSICAL FITNESS

633
00:34:37,533 --> 00:34:40,533
SO THAT OUR GOAL CAN BE REACHED.

634
00:34:40,533 --> 00:34:44,433
OKAY, SO, WE'RE GONNA HEAD UP
CEDAR FLATS TRAIL TODAY.

635
00:34:44,433 --> 00:34:46,433
AT EVERY BENCH,
WE'RE GONNA DO

636
00:34:46,433 --> 00:34:48,600
AN UPPER-BODY EXERCISE
TO REST YOUR LEGS.

637
00:34:48,600 --> 00:34:50,133
OKAY.

638
00:34:50,133 --> 00:34:51,867
THIS WILL BE
A REALLY GOOD VISUAL FOR YOU

639
00:34:51,867 --> 00:34:53,167
TO SEE
HOW MUCH YOU IMPROVED.

640
00:34:53,167 --> 00:34:54,267
OKAY.

641
00:34:54,267 --> 00:34:55,300
YESTERDAY MORNING,

642
00:34:55,300 --> 00:34:56,467
YOU GOT ON THE SCALE
AND WEIGHED HOW MUCH?

643
00:34:56,467 --> 00:34:57,633
399.

644
00:34:57,633 --> 00:34:59,300
THAT'S AWESOME.

645
00:34:59,300 --> 00:35:02,067
I WAS LIKE, "IF I COULD JUMP
FOR JOY, I WOULD."

646
00:35:02,067 --> 00:35:03,900
THERE YOU GO.

647
00:35:03,900 --> 00:35:06,100
OKAY, HAVE TO SLOW DOWN.
THAT'S ALL RIGHT.

648
00:35:06,100 --> 00:35:07,633
[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

649
00:35:07,633 --> 00:35:08,833
GRAB THE HANDLES.

650
00:35:08,833 --> 00:35:10,833
WORK THE UPPER BODY
FOR ABOUT A MINUTE.

651
00:35:10,833 --> 00:35:12,300
CURL IT UP. GOOD.

652
00:35:12,300 --> 00:35:13,467
CURL IT UP.
BREATHE IT OUT.

653
00:35:13,467 --> 00:35:14,667
SLOW ON THAT RELEASE.
GOOD.

654
00:35:14,667 --> 00:35:17,467
I FEEL LIKE
I CAN FEEL FAT BURNING.

655
00:35:17,467 --> 00:35:18,733
THAT'S AWESOME.

656
00:35:20,800 --> 00:35:23,767
Zsalynn: IT FEELS SO GREAT,
AFTER WORKING OUT.

657
00:35:23,767 --> 00:35:26,467
THAT HALF-MILE WAS AMAZING.

658
00:35:26,467 --> 00:35:28,833
I'M HAPPY TO DRINK WATER,

659
00:35:28,833 --> 00:35:32,200
BUT EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE,
I DO STILL INDULGE.

660
00:35:32,200 --> 00:35:36,500
MAY I GET A LARGE
DIET DR. PEPPER, PLEASE?

661
00:35:36,500 --> 00:35:40,167
NO. NO, NO, NO.
NO FRIES.

662
00:35:40,167 --> 00:35:43,633
WELL, YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED
TO DRINK CARBONATION, BUT...

663
00:35:53,767 --> 00:35:56,767
...IT TASTES LIKE LIQUID GOLD.

664
00:35:56,767 --> 00:35:59,167
AND NOW IT'S GONNA HURT
FOR A MINUTE

665
00:35:59,167 --> 00:36:02,167
'CAUSE ALL OF THE AIR
IS IN MY LITTLE STOMACH.

666
00:36:02,167 --> 00:36:05,067
I HAVE TO BREAK DR. NOW'S RULES

667
00:36:05,067 --> 00:36:08,533
IN ORDER TO MAKE THIS DIET
REALLY SUCCESSFUL,

668
00:36:08,533 --> 00:36:12,633
'CAUSE, YOU KNOW, I DO STILL
HAVE TO LIVE AND ENJOY LIFE.

669
00:36:16,400 --> 00:36:18,400
GUESS HOW FAR I WALKED.

670
00:36:18,400 --> 00:36:20,833
UM, 3 FEET?

671
00:36:20,833 --> 00:36:22,267
10 FEET?
MOVE.

672
00:36:22,267 --> 00:36:24,400
GARETH HAS JUST BEEN
CHIPPING AWAY AT ME.

673
00:36:24,400 --> 00:36:27,367
Gareth: SO I GUESS YOU'RE GONNA
CRY ALL AFTERNOON NOW

674
00:36:27,367 --> 00:36:28,900
ABOUT YOUR LEGS
AND KNEES HURTING.

675
00:36:28,900 --> 00:36:30,533
YOU KNOW,
I LEARNED A LONG TIME AGO

676
00:36:30,533 --> 00:36:31,833
YOU CAN'T CHANGE OTHER PEOPLE.

677
00:36:31,833 --> 00:36:33,933
[ Sarcastically ]
YOU'RE SO SWEET, HONEY.

678
00:36:33,933 --> 00:36:36,533
THAT'S NICE.

679
00:36:36,533 --> 00:36:39,900
NOW I HAVE TO RELY ON MYSELF
FOR HAPPINESS.

680
00:36:51,067 --> 00:36:55,100
I'M GOING TO SEE DR. NOW,
AND HANNAH CAME WITH ME.

681
00:36:55,100 --> 00:36:56,533
HA.

682
00:36:56,533 --> 00:36:59,633
I HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH WEIGHT
I'VE LOST SINCE I WAS HERE LAST.

683
00:37:02,900 --> 00:37:04,567
OKAY.

684
00:37:06,400 --> 00:37:08,333
ARE YOU GONNA LOOK?
NOPE, I'M NOT LOOKING.

685
00:37:08,333 --> 00:37:11,900
Dr. Nowzaradan:
YOU HAVEN'T LOST ANY WEIGHT.

686
00:37:11,900 --> 00:37:13,767
HOW MANY TIMES
ARE YOU EATING?

687
00:37:13,767 --> 00:37:16,333
THREE, SOMETIMES TWO TIMES
A DAY, NO SNACKING.

688
00:37:16,333 --> 00:37:17,767
WHAT ARE YOU DRINKING?

689
00:37:17,767 --> 00:37:18,933
WATER.

690
00:37:18,933 --> 00:37:20,500
MAYBE I HAVE
A DIET COKE...

691
00:37:20,500 --> 00:37:22,500
DIET COKE?

692
00:37:22,500 --> 00:37:24,633
ONCE A WEEK, MAYBE.

693
00:37:24,633 --> 00:37:26,967
DIET COKE IS NOT RECOMMENDED
AFTER BYPASS SURGERY.

694
00:37:26,967 --> 00:37:28,267
I KNOW. I DON'T --

695
00:37:28,267 --> 00:37:30,300
IT'S NOT SOMETHING
THAT I NORMALLY DO, RIGHT?

696
00:37:30,300 --> 00:37:33,067
WHAT DO I NORMALLY GET
WHEN WE GO SOMEWHERE?

697
00:37:33,067 --> 00:37:34,100
WATER.

698
00:37:34,100 --> 00:37:35,933
WATER OR TEA. YEAH.

699
00:37:43,267 --> 00:37:47,333
SOMEHOW YOU NEED TO SHARPEN UP
THESE EATING HABITS

700
00:37:47,333 --> 00:37:50,900
TO BE HEALTHY, LOW-CALORIE,
LOW-FAT DIET.

701
00:37:50,900 --> 00:37:52,600
THANK YOU, DR. NOW.

702
00:37:52,600 --> 00:37:53,867
BYE-BYE.

703
00:37:59,433 --> 00:38:02,233
LET'S GET OUT OF HERE,
PUMPKIN.

704
00:38:02,233 --> 00:38:04,100
Zsalynn: I THINK IN MY HEAD,

705
00:38:04,100 --> 00:38:05,167
"WHAT COULD YOU
HAVE DONE BETTER?

706
00:38:05,167 --> 00:38:06,233
YOU SHOULD HAVE
DONE THIS BETTER."

707
00:38:06,233 --> 00:38:08,567
THANK YOU SO MUCH.
ALL RIGHT.

708
00:38:08,567 --> 00:38:12,067
I HAVE TO DO IT.
I HAVE TO FIGURE IT OUT.

709
00:38:12,067 --> 00:38:13,067
NOT NOW. IN THE BACK.

710
00:38:18,067 --> 00:38:20,400
Zsalynn: I STILL HAVE TRIALS
AND TRIBULATIONS.

711
00:38:20,400 --> 00:38:22,167
I STILL HAVE STUFF
I'M GETTING ACCUSTOMED TO,

712
00:38:22,167 --> 00:38:24,833
BUT I DEFINITELY CAN LOOK
IN THE MIRROR

713
00:38:24,833 --> 00:38:27,867
AND BE OVERJOYED
WITH WHERE I'VE COME FROM.

714
00:38:35,200 --> 00:38:38,500
I REALIZE
THIS IS A LONG JOURNEY,

715
00:38:38,500 --> 00:38:42,133
BUT I HAVE TO STAY FOCUSED
SO THAT I CAN BE HEALTHY

716
00:38:42,133 --> 00:38:45,133
AND BE THE MOM
THAT HANNAH NEEDS ME TO BE.

717
00:38:46,700 --> 00:38:50,533
HANNAH IS DEFINITELY
MY BIGGEST MOTIVATION.

718
00:38:50,533 --> 00:38:53,967
DOING THINGS WITH HER
IS REALLY IMPORTANT.

719
00:38:53,967 --> 00:38:56,767
I CERTAINLY CAN FEEL
THE DIFFERENCE IN WHAT WE DO

720
00:38:56,767 --> 00:38:58,500
AND THE TIME WE SPEND TOGETHER.

721
00:38:58,500 --> 00:39:00,733
HANNAH, HAVE YOU EVER SEEN ME
SIT IN A SWING BEFORE?

722
00:39:00,733 --> 00:39:01,733
NO.

723
00:39:01,733 --> 00:39:04,167
A YEAR AGO,
I COULDN'T WALK THIS FAR

724
00:39:04,167 --> 00:39:05,933
AND PLAY WITH HANNAH
AT THE PLAYGROUND.

725
00:39:05,933 --> 00:39:08,100
I WOULD HAVE TO SIT ON THE OTHER
SIDE OF THE FENCE AND WATCH,

726
00:39:08,100 --> 00:39:12,700
SO IT FEELS AMAZING THAT
I CAN MAKE IT THIS FAR AND BACK.

727
00:39:12,700 --> 00:39:15,067
IT'S REALLY AMAZING.

728
00:39:18,067 --> 00:39:22,233
I'M GOING TO SEE DR. NOW
FOR MY APPOINTMENT.

729
00:39:22,233 --> 00:39:25,900
I HAVE NO IDEA
WHAT THE SCALE'S GONNA SAY.

730
00:39:25,900 --> 00:39:27,267
HELLO.
HEY.

731
00:39:27,267 --> 00:39:30,700
I JUST FEEL REALLY HEALTHY.

732
00:39:32,933 --> 00:39:35,667
THAT'S A BIG DIFFERENCE.
HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THAT?

733
00:39:35,667 --> 00:39:37,367
THAT'S AWESOME.

734
00:39:37,367 --> 00:39:39,867
Dr. Nowzaradan: YOU'RE DOING
EXCELLENT, EXCELLENT.

735
00:39:39,867 --> 00:39:41,533
FROM 600 POUNDS TO 350.

736
00:39:41,533 --> 00:39:43,367
IF YOU KEEP IT UP,

737
00:39:43,367 --> 00:39:45,067
PRETTY SOON YOU'RE GONNA BE
UNDER 200 POUNDS.

738
00:39:45,067 --> 00:39:46,067
YEAH, DEFINITELY.

739
00:39:46,067 --> 00:39:47,200
I'LL SEE YOU LATER.

740
00:39:47,200 --> 00:39:49,200
ALL RIGHT, SOUNDS GOOD.
THANK YOU.

741
00:39:49,200 --> 00:39:50,400
SHE FEELS GOOD.
SHE'S EATING GOOD.

742
00:39:50,400 --> 00:39:52,067
THANK YOU, JESUS.

743
00:39:52,067 --> 00:39:56,700
SHE'S GOING BACK ON TRACK
AND START MAKING PROGRESS AGAIN.

744
00:39:56,700 --> 00:39:59,633
Zsalynn: I'M PROUD OF MYSELF
EVERY SINGLE DAY.

745
00:39:59,633 --> 00:40:01,533
IT'S JUST LITTLE TINY VICTORIES

746
00:40:01,533 --> 00:40:04,400
THAT MAKES THIS JOURNEY
REALLY UNBELIEVABLE.

747
00:40:08,200 --> 00:40:10,500
HANNAH,
HOW'S YOUR HOMEWORK COMING?

748
00:40:10,500 --> 00:40:11,767
Hannah:
WE'RE DOING THIS ONE.

749
00:40:11,767 --> 00:40:14,000
AND WE'RE GONNA DO
THIS ONE NEXT.

750
00:40:14,000 --> 00:40:17,000
TODAY I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO A 5K,

751
00:40:17,000 --> 00:40:19,267
DOWNTOWN SAN ANTONIO
WITH HANNAH.

752
00:40:19,267 --> 00:40:21,700
UNFORTUNATELY,
I TWISTED MY ANKLE,

753
00:40:21,700 --> 00:40:27,000
AND NOW I'M LAID UP WITH THIS
BIG BOOT ON MY LEG AND CRUTCHES.

754
00:40:29,700 --> 00:40:33,567
I DON'T CONSIDER THIS DAY LOST,
EVEN THOUGH WE CAN'T DO THE 5K.

755
00:40:33,567 --> 00:40:36,933
WE'RE STILL JUST GONNA HANG OUT,
MAKE A HEALTHY DINNER,

756
00:40:36,933 --> 00:40:39,433
AND JUST MAKE THE BEST
OF THE DAY.

757
00:40:39,433 --> 00:40:40,933
WHERE DO I POUR IT?

758
00:40:40,933 --> 00:40:42,067
NOT YET.

759
00:40:42,067 --> 00:40:44,533
WE'RE GONNA MAKE
SPAGHETTI SQUASH

760
00:40:44,533 --> 00:40:46,367
WITH SOME CHICKEN BREASTS.

761
00:40:46,367 --> 00:40:48,400
Gareth: IS IT READY?

762
00:40:48,400 --> 00:40:50,900
IT SHOULD DEFINITELY
BE READY.

763
00:40:50,900 --> 00:40:53,667
IT ACTUALLY DON'T TASTE BAD.
I'M KIND OF SURPRISED.

764
00:40:53,667 --> 00:40:56,500
COOKING IS DEFINITELY NOT
YOUR FORTE IN LIFE.

765
00:40:56,500 --> 00:40:59,733
Zsalynn: I DON'T KNOW WHY
GARETH IS THE WAY HE IS.

766
00:40:59,733 --> 00:41:02,167
I THINK THERE MIGHT BE A POINT
IN OUR MARRIAGE

767
00:41:02,167 --> 00:41:04,133
WHEN I'M NOT ABLE
TO TAKE IT ANYMORE.

768
00:41:04,133 --> 00:41:07,767
I DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT POINT IS.
I DON'T KNOW.

769
00:41:07,767 --> 00:41:11,067
BUT WHEN I'M THERE,
I'LL KNOW IT.

770
00:41:11,067 --> 00:41:13,800
COME HERE, HANNAH,
LET ME BRUSH YOUR HAIR, BABE.

771
00:41:13,800 --> 00:41:17,067
SO, UNTIL THEN,
THE GREATEST JOY IN MY LIFE

772
00:41:17,067 --> 00:41:20,233
IS BEING
THIS LITTLE GIRL'S MOTHER.

773
00:41:20,233 --> 00:41:22,767
SHE'S THE REASON
I'M DOING ALL OF THIS.

774
00:41:29,533 --> 00:41:32,600
OH, MY GOD. THEY FIT.

775
00:41:32,600 --> 00:41:36,067
IT'S BEEN LIKE 7 YEARS SINCE
I'VE WORN A PAIR OF JEANS.

776
00:41:36,067 --> 00:41:38,133
GET MOVING, BABE, PLEASE.

777
00:41:38,133 --> 00:41:42,400
I'M REALLY EXCITED TO GO RIDING
HORSES WITH MY MOM TODAY.

778
00:41:42,400 --> 00:41:43,700
[ ENGINE TURNS OVER ]

779
00:41:43,700 --> 00:41:46,833
Zsalynn: THIS JOURNEY
IS A LONG, LONG ROAD, BUT...

780
00:41:46,833 --> 00:41:47,933
HELLO!

781
00:41:47,933 --> 00:41:49,067
...FOR HANNAH...

782
00:41:49,067 --> 00:41:50,967
HE JUST LICKED ME.

783
00:41:50,967 --> 00:41:53,167
...I FEEL LIKE
WE ARE ON THE RIGHT PATH.

784
00:41:53,167 --> 00:41:54,933
I'M SCARED
I'M GONNA FALL.

785
00:41:54,933 --> 00:41:56,700
YOU'LL BE FINE.

786
00:41:56,700 --> 00:41:58,800
I LOVE MYSELF ENOUGH
TO MAKE BETTER CHOICES...

787
00:41:58,800 --> 00:42:01,267
YOU CAN SMILE AND WAVE.
GIVE A LITTLE...

788
00:42:01,267 --> 00:42:03,233
...AND TO BE STRONGER.
BEAUTIFUL!

789
00:42:03,233 --> 00:42:06,167
Hannah:
IT'S GOOD TO HAVE MY MOM,
LIKE, EVERY STEP OF THE WAY,

790
00:42:06,167 --> 00:42:08,233
NOT JUST, LIKE, A FEW STEPS.

791
00:42:08,233 --> 00:42:10,500
I HAD FUN TODAY.

792
00:42:10,500 --> 00:42:12,233
I'M A WORK IN PROGRESS.

793
00:42:12,233 --> 00:42:14,700
BUT I HOPE THAT HANNAH LEARNS

794
00:42:14,700 --> 00:42:17,967
THAT NO MATTER WHAT
THE OBSTACLE,

795
00:42:17,967 --> 00:42:20,100
YOU CAN OVERCOME IT.

796
00:42:21,167 --> 00:42:23,200
LIFE IS AMAZING NOW.

797
00:42:23,200 --> 00:42:24,533
I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF.

798
00:42:24,533 --> 00:42:27,133
EVERY DAY IS A BRAND-NEW DAY,

799
00:42:27,133 --> 00:42:30,833
AND IT BRINGS BRAND-NEW,
AWESOME CHALLENGES.

800
00:42:30,833 --> 00:42:32,300
DO YOU WANT TO DO IT AGAIN?

801
00:42:32,300 --> 00:42:32,533
Hannah: YEAH.